Love Hurts - Incubus

So why bother?

I'd think I'd feel much more carefree without love.

But yet, if you find the right one, you wouldn't regret any second that you are with her. Sharing the joy, pain, excitement, laughter and silence, you find it reassuring when she's around for those.

When she's not around, you feel an empty, indescribable feeling. You want her around in everything.

So why waste your time and effort, chasing after something which isn't in your line of recee?

Love just makes you do stupid things don't it. You ache when you aren't appreciated, yet deep down, you just want to give her everything.

So why change yourself to someone you're not?

Changes for the better, why not? Sometimes, if you're able to change yourself to be able to adapt to a person's weakness, you're in a unique relationship. That's something you should hold on to, because, not everyone can.

Why am I thinking so much? Urgh, Well thats what happens when you think you have feelings for someone. Nothing can explain what you're feeling and what you want to do. It really sucks, and the thought about telling that someone makes you think even more.

What are the consequences?
What would you do?
What would she do?
What if things don't work out?
What if commitment was a far greater issue then you thought it was?

Someone please take away my brain for a minute, and have me work on instincts a bit more. Thanks.

Nostalgia.

Hi. Have been missing lots of feelings these few days. Maybe some days reminds me of what I've done previously on the certain days. Yesterday was the second day of Chinese New Year. I shrugged when people start asking me stuff like "where's your girlfriend? Never bring her to meet us?" and "how are your grades". The girlfriend thing is fine actually, just don't know what to say. Broke up? Couldn't make it? But by instinct I'd just say the truth. Then there'd be this awkward silence. Just hate the asking about school part cos I could tell some of them just wants to compare.

Made me think, wow its been a year eh. Or about there. I do miss those times. Maybe about having a companion, not anyone in specific.

Intimacy could be a great thing or a bad thing, depending on how you view it.
Well for me, sex could mean something more then just pleasure, amongst other scientific stuff whatsoever. What I could picture is, soft music in the background (cliche) I'm lying beside her, and we'd be looking into each other in our eyes, searching for something deeper then irises. I stare deep into her eyes, as if to tell her she means the whole world to me, and I'd be anything for her anytime, anywhere. She does the same to tell me she understands what I meant. Then I'd give her a smile. A short but simple one, just to initiate her's because, oh, her smile is just the greatest sight ever.
It's the closest we can be physically, but yet, emotionally there are bridges yet to finish glueing. There's the adventure I wouldn't mind taking on with her. Everything's so hot and steamy, and nothing else in this world would matter to you anymore. You just don't want to miss a sight of her - her pretty eyes, and her irresistible soft, red lips. I just can't imagine how would it be like to kiss her. Just one peck on her lips. I can't imagine, but to try. It acts like a spark, to ignite it all - the heat, passion, love. It allows us to take our emotions and feelings for each other to a whole new realm.

Well there's probably more to go on about, but I shan't elaborate on that part. Some day else probably. [This reminds me of some teaser or trailer]

For now I shall say goodnight to myself, and hope dreams with her in them stop recurring.