Sunday, December 26, 2010

Reminiscence..

Merry Christmas!

It's supposed to be a joyful time of the year, hope you guys managed to keep it up! I'm really glad I got to spend it with really awesome friends and got great gifts.

However, every christmas, without fail, I'll be reminded of certain people in my life who changed it, in one way or the other. Don't get me wrong, I'm not emo, just reminded! Like how stockings remind you to get presents before its too late :X

Since its a joyous occasion, this post will be a happy one I promise (:

Angel:
I remember when I walked out of my house, my heart would start beating heavily when I see you across the road. It was a real surprise that you managed to get my email and we started chatting a lot. I missed those times. I remembered having a huge crush on you, that lasted the whole year till Christmas 4 or 5 years ago. I wanted badly to give you your Christmas gift but nope the letterbox was too small. And that you wanted me to throw it across your gate, but I didn't want to spoil it. Wow, I'm actually surprised I remembered stuff like this. Simple things like late night chats and post morning conversations are really things that I treasured. You were a pleasure to talk to, and I don't know how did everything just stopped, however heartbroken I was, I got over it. And all those contributes to my happy memories. And they always give me such a great and happy feeling, which nothing else can.

Jing Yi:
You were the reason why I spoke English so much, and got pretty good at it. That I have you to thank. You showed me how every simple thing can be meaningful. Those stories that you wrote for me. I still kept them, but I forgot where I left it ): I'd love to read them again. You were really pretty and smart, and though during the time I didn't really have feelings for you, I teared during christmas night when I realized school would be starting soon, and I wouldn't be able to talk to you as much. And soon after that, I started missing you a lot, but I don't know why everything just stopped. You then soon became the example of someone I'd look out for to be in a relationship. But I found out there is no one else like you. Your unique personality really strikes out, and I long to talk to you again, just to see how much you've changed.

Wow, can't believe it actually turned out pretty sad. Oh well, I'm feeling optimistic about the new year, so Merry X'Mas and Happy New Year! I shall go back to writing my Christmas Cards (Wth right.)

Friday, December 10, 2010

Waiting for a Girl Like You - Foreigner.

The more I try to run away, the more it hurts my emotions and my behavior. Towards people.
It's a bad disease, but I have to get rid of that feeling somehow.
I guess it just became worse when I feel that you aren't giving me as much attention.
But its alright, at this rate, the feelings will just all go away.

I hope.

On a lighter note, I'll be performing with a jazz band on New Year! My freaking dream come true. At a hotel in Sentosa I guess. Can't wait, but yea gotta practice hard, I'll continue psycho-ing myself to do so!

Saturday, December 04, 2010

Can't Fight The Feeling Anymore - REO Speedwagon

meant We're not be. to
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meant We're not be. to
meant We're not be. to
meant We're not be. to
meant We're not be. to

Sorry, I have to drill it in my head so I can feel normal around you again.
Right now I feel like shit. I don't feel like I'm myself around them.
Had this exact same emotional rush like what, 3 years ago. I thought I had fought it off, but no. I'm still the same less confidence of a man to tell the other how I felt. Never knew I would find myself into this kind of situation again. AGAIN.
Isn't there a freakin' remedy for it?

Last night, I had a dream, a good but weird one. But almost 100% of my dreams don't come true, so oh well. I can just bloody stop dreaming and get back into reality where things actually matter.